And at the end, it is me and that voice. Talking to each other. I'm not surprised. I'm saddened and disappointed.
Here's what the voice has been telling me - he's not that into you. Let it go.
* He spends more time with everyone other than you
* When you say "I'd better go," he says "ok"
* He'd hiding the relationship from his friends
* He doesn't talk to you about his feelings
* When you leave late at night and drive home, he doesn't call to make sure you got in safely, nor does he ask you to call him
* He doesn't tag you in his facebook posts (couldn't resist this one)
* In a month of seeing one another, you don't have a single photo of the two of you together
The signs I missed:
* He said "I don't know what I'm looking for"/"I don't know where I am now"
* Not feeling safe/secure to call him just to say "hello" and see how his day was without feeling the possibility of forcing myself on him
* Having monologues instead of conversations. Feeling empty and unsettled